WITHDRAWALS

Ladies and gents, this is not a commercial. Sweats, shakes, unable to let remote down. Third go round with about 300 channels. THIS IS NOT A DRILL...only two more football games to go this season. I am ill just thinking about what's to come. It is too soon for me to indulge in basketball. that's not till March. Tennis has started, slow but good game. And yes I did set my alarm clock to 3am on both Saturday and Sunday to watch women's and men final from Melbourne. It was so why I love tennis. It is like a moving chess game. Serena and Aussie grand slam is no longer a match for her. She was hurt last year with Sloane beating her. This year again, hurt...with Ana Ivonivic. That would have been a tough but win-able match. Number 1 men and number 4 women's survived the carnage. Tennis is the best show in town. But...back to the fact that now I am overdosing on ID TV. SUV got a mini marathon going. not even a flutter of excitement there. Lifetime movies, too easy to get stuck on. Could watch Snapped, seeing women losing their minds, hmm...what the hell. Who doesn't like seeing stupidity at work. Juice, pizza roles, cats are sleep alrighty then... bring it....

REALLY:(

This is one day that needs to go into the books. I am thinking that IT will go away but IT is getting worse. I know your saying what the heck is IT. Well...you be the doctor. Ready, I am beginning to have episodes of loss of memory. I could be doing something and literally I will forget why I am doing something. My hands have episodes of tremors. My gait is getting worse I can't  I am leaning either sides of myself. At first I thought it was the heaviness of my backpack or not use to my weight. It is a little discouraging that by the time I raise my hand I have forgotten what we were talking about. I call it disconnecting. Just writing this I have disconnected 5x. My handwriting has changed. Spelling is a chore. I was thinking Parkinson's but onset is usually by manifesting at an earlier age. Brain tumors. Well, don't really want to go down that road. A bit frustrated but I am handling it. It is sad for me because my mind has always been my diamond in the rough. If there is evidence of something I rather know now than later. Well, its about that time. Wheels up in 30

OFF SEASON REBUILD WEEK 2

As a lifetime Oakland Raiders fan, this was suppose to be our break out season. Well it wasn't. As usual, the quarterback was the issue. Folks are so quick to suggest guys aren't NFL ready. First it was Tim Tebow and now Terrell Pryor. Oakland's has had quarterback problems for years. Pryor has been with us for 3 years. To not play him towards the end of the season was down right crap. They are not going to keep him for next season. At least how him off for trade purposes. He won games in spite of a lousy O-line to protect him. Now I know his ex-agent put the Raiders on blast with how they were not using him . It was crude and rude but it rang true. History has it that when we let a quarterback go some flourish on other teams. Now let's keep it real,  Raiders abuse their quarterbacks. I believe Rich Gannon was the last true quarterback. We have picked up QB every draft or free agency every year. When are we gonna get it right. We are taking hostages and then throw them under the bus. We are going to pick up another QB. Who do you think,  Manziel  or Bridgewater?

Raiders usually are the team that gives veteran footballers a second chance when Al Davis was alive.
There has been no shred of consistency for the last 10 years. Al always wanted to go with people that were  grateful and hungry to play. Pryor was the last of Davis era before he passed away. It is not the position but the management. This is the era of QBs needing to stand in the pocket or scramble. Pryor is a new age QB. There is Johnny Football, who is a one man show, will get swallowed up in the NFL. He is good but he won't be able to run around as he did in college. Bridgewater is just another Pryor. When are the fans gonna get a winning season? Is anybody listening? (ho-hum)

Thank GOD for the Winter Olympics and, yes, the BFF in my head, Serena Williams. This off season won't be all that bad. Good luck Oakland. Holla back at me in August. Aussie Open here I come. Working on another slam victory for Serena and Venus. Got to bounce... WHEELS UP IN 30..................................MOTZZZ

GRATITUDE

 IT'S AMAZING WHEN YOU FOLLOW GOD YOU GET THROUGH THINGS SMOOTHER. I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO MASSAGE MY SOUL AND BECOME TEACHABLE. THIS IS AN OPPORTUNITY TO PRESS THROUGH FEAR, INSECURITIES AND CRITIZISM. GOD HAS ONCE AGAIN HAVE ME ON A PATH FOR HIS PURPOSE. I AM READY FOR A BREAK THROUGH. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THRU CHRIST WHO STRENGTHEN'S ME. THIS IS A NEW JOURNEY WITH OLD HOPES AND DREAMS. THE STRUGGLES HAVE BEEN THERE THE LAST 6 MONTHS. DIDN'T THINK I WAS GONNA MAKE IT. BUT AS JACOB WRESTLED AND HELD ONTO GOD SO TIGHT AND JACOB DIDN'T LET GO. GOD HAD TO CHANGE HIS NAME TO ISREAL. GRATEFULNESS. THE STRUGGLE IS PART OF THE TRAINING FOR GOD'S PURPOSE FOR US. WE TEACH AND REACH FOLKS THRU OUR TESTIMONIES. I GET THAT...FAITH... IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING IN YOUR LIFE YOU ARE PROBABLY NOT WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE. GOD DOESN'T TRY TO TRICK US. HE WILL GO WITH US TO THE VERY END WHEN WE ARE WALKING ON A ROAD NOT OK'D BY HIM. GRACE...DON'T DESERVE IT BUT ITS FREE. COMPLAINING OF IT..IT IS NEVER NOT THERE. MERCY...HE LOVES US TO WELLNESS...OK, TIRED NOW...AND IF NO ONE TOLD YOU THAT THEY LOVE YOU TODAY...YUP... GOD AND I LOVE YOU...